Open Fire

by Joanna Ransdell

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For Rudy, who slept under the piano as I wrote this album.

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released January 2, 2015

Piano/vocals: Joanna Ransdell
Background vocals: Judy Blumenthal
Guitar, bass: Phil Boos
Drums, percussion: Seth Weddle

All songs written and performed by Joanna Ransdell.
Recorded/Produced by Seth Weddle at Sweddle Records.

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Track Name: You Always Find Me
make it fast, step aside, out of my way
who invited you here, who invited you here?
i've got no time for another heartbreak
so move along my dear

there's no room in my bed for a lover
no room in my head for another possible pain
no room in my heart for these aches and tremors
so move along, right through my veins

no matter how far i run
no matter how high i fly away
you always find me
you won't let me be
you always find me

no matter how hard i try to find a place to hide
i'm no match for your eyes
you see right through me
you always find me

you say you've got a little space in your heart
for me to rent just temporary
but wasn't it you who said at the start
that i was the one you wanted to marry

i don't recall forcing you to commit your life to me
so i thought you would stay
but now you say that this doesn't fit
we were too young, it was a mistake

no matter how far i run
no matter how high i fly away
you always find me
you won't let me be
you always find me

no matter how hard i try to find a place to hide
i'm no match for your eyes
you see right through me
you always find me
Track Name: The Festival
i saw you at the festival
the music played to the beat of you walking toward me
drink in hand you asked me to dance
as the sunset
night fell upon us as we waltzed through crowds of people
we fear no evil, we invented it

if this is our last night on earth
we're gonna make it worth every minute
if this is the one life we have
we better start living it
the clock is ticking, yeah, our time is limited
if this is the one life we have
we better start living it

i saw you from across the room
averted my eyes, felt my palms sweat
but then i thought what other chance will i get
so i let you lead me through the air
we were flying
above the festival of the dying

if this is our last night on earth
we're gonna make it worth every minute
if this is the one life we have
we better start living it
the clock is ticking, yeah, our time is limited
if this is the one life we have
we better start living it

if you got the chance to love don't let it pass
hold on to this moment it could be your last
if you got something to do better do it fast
hold on to this moment it could be your last

if this is our last night on earth
we're gonna make it worth every minute
if this is the one life we have
we better start living it
the clock is ticking, yeah, our time is limited
if this is the one life we have
we better start living it
Track Name: Loneliness
i'm a masochist when it comes to loneliness
just give me another hit, one more hit
baby don't end it just yet
you wanna get in yeah, here's the trick
tell him that you're feeling it
till he runs away from it
then you're gonna pay for it
put it on the front line
your heart out there feel the pain till you feel fine
then just pack it in try to find mr. right again
gotta walk through hell to find heaven

feel it in my pulse, yeah
under my thumb
this kinda hurt ain't worth running from
do you feel it? the loneliness
feel it in your heart, feel it in your lungs

the less i feel pain the longer i'm numb
the less i'm alone the lonelier i become
do you feel it? the loneliness
feel it in your bones, feel it on your tongue

he says he wants to get to know you, yes
then he says hold on miss
i don't want nothin' serious
now you're left holding this bitter piece of loneliness
in your corner of darkness

everybody's looking for intimacy
nobody's looking for the everlasting
you're so close to pleasure but so far from bliss
thought you hit rock bottom but
baby you ain't seen nothin' yet

feel it in my pulse, yeah
under my thumb
this kinda hurt ain't worth running from
do you feel it? the loneliness
feel it in your heart, feel it in your lungs

the less i feel pain the longer i'm numb
the less i'm alone the lonelier i become
do you feel it? the loneliness
feel it in your bones, feel it on your tongue
Track Name: Dance of the Yellow Flower
went on a walk trying to get lost
suddenly i came across
a yellow flower's head severed
blowing in the wind

there was no soil to hold her ground
she couldn't find a place to slow down
her petals grasping at the earth
she lost her companion

dance, dance, dance
we glide, we stride
we roll with the punches
but my hunch is
we won't survive this dance

i was a daffodil neat and new
thought i could grow with a beauty like you
thought i could make this place your home
what was i thinking?

you were a spider lily you know well
the flower that leads to hell
you led me there and back again
just in time for spring

dance, dance, dance
we glide, we stride
we roll with the punches
but my hunch is
we won't survive this dance

bet you're doing well there walking to the campfire
bet you're doing well there holding his hand
do you know that i'm here boiling like a water kettle
falling like a flower petal into the sand

dance, dance, dance
we glide, we stride
we roll with the punches
but my hunch is
we won't survive this dance
Track Name: I Will Survive You
you didn't like the sun and you didn't like the air
so you thought you would take a swim
the water was too cold but you didn't have a care in the world
you'd just jump into someone else's skin

my body was mine but you thought it was a mine
you went searching for diamonds
you may think it's fine taking whatever you find
it doesn't make a difference, it doesn't make a difference

if you are a storm, i will take shelter
i will outlast you
if you are a rock, i'll be a river
i'll flow right past you
i will survive you
i will survive you

you were the wolf and i was the girl
but now i'm the hunter
thought you could dodge the lightning bolts i hurl
but you tremble just at the sound of the thunder

if you are a storm, i will take shelter
i will outlast you
if you are a rock, i'll be a river
i'll flow right past you
i will survive you
i will survive you

if you are a storm, i will take shelter
i will outlast you
if you are a rock, i'll be a river
i'll flow right past you
if you are the sun, i will find shade
i will not burn under you
if you are the end of the world i will make it
i will survive you
Track Name: Bleeding for Boys
i've been bleeding for boys all of my days
they come to me for shelter
then they take all there is to take
it's been so hard trying to get by
bearing their sins on my knees
they've taken my fruit, all that was ripe
left only the rotten for me

boy, didn't i stay when you said don't run away?
didn't i let you mold me like clay?
i kept your secrets safe, i was your hiding place
you came inside left me here bleeding for days

i've been bleeding for boys all of my nights
they think that i am weak
they never think i will put up a fight
they were right
but you didn't take no for an answer
you still wanted more
so you took out my heart
cast it aside, left me here to bleed on the floor

but not anymore, no
not anymore

boy, didn't i stay when you said don't run away?
didn't i let you mold me like clay?
i kept your secrets safe, i was your hiding place
you came inside left me here bleeding for days

but not anymore, no
not anymore
Track Name: Clean Enough
scrub me clean and shiny like a weapon
like the spotless sheen of a gun
see yourself in the reflection
go fight a war that you've already won

scrub till you wash away the sadness
a blank slate is left with a smile
memories aren't clean and a well-oiled machine runs best
when it runs on denial

everyone's trying to feed me God
their picket signs are in my yard
saying you can be saved if you give up everything you are

why can't we still be friends, my dear friend?
is this really goodbye?
i guess i'll never be clean enough for you
unless i live a lie

so this is goodbye

ashes to ashes we were broken
before our friendship even began
when we were young you said you were just like me
so i guess i thought you'd understand

scrub till you wash away the madness
along with it all those you used to love
now his word you preach and with a mouth full of bleach
your cleanliness is next to what's above

now you're trying to feed me hate
but this time i won't concede
i am not a victim of your love
i won't watch you bleed

why can't we still be friends, my dear friend?
is this really goodbye?
i guess i'll never be clean enough for you
unless i live a lie

so this is goodbye
this is goodbye
goodbye
Track Name: Dead Flowers
you sent them in a bouquet to me
said they reminded you of my beauty
but those flowers were already dead

kept them in a vase wilting there
shriveled up gasping for air
but it's no use they've turned brown where
they used to be red

"i'll call you," you said
but you never did, you never did again

you said maybe you just need some time
call on one more lifeline
but those hours have already passed

i placed my hand over your cold skin
a heart like yours never gets broken
you knew all along it couldn't last

because you're already dead
already dead

little hearts on fishing line
dance like grapes on the vine
dandelions drenched in wine
they're already, already

little hearts on fishing line
dance like grapes on the vine
dandelions drowned in wine
they're already, already

but this girl's still alive
is anybody out there still alive?

you're already, already dead
Track Name: Open Fire
soldiers march while swallowing their fear
but somehow i couldn't sense the danger here
thought it was just a little fun
thought i got the message clear
but now here comes love
that dangerous little love could make us disappear

we're driving into open fire
keep your seat belts on
we live like we are kings but really
we are only pawns
we think we are impervious
to any kind of harm
but each time i'm with you
there's a bomb ticking in my heart

the sun is out, my favorite kind of day
but the hunters lurk in the shadows where they wait
love is in the air with each step we take
but baby there's a land mine
there's a land mine could blow us away

we're driving into open fire
keep your seat belts on
we live like we are kings but really
we are only pawns
we think we are impervious
to any kind of harm
but each time i'm with you
there's a bomb ticking in my heart

lord, have mercy on me
have mercy on me
help him see i'm real
and he's gotta fight for me
fight for me on the battlefield

lord, have mercy on me
have mercy on me
help him understand
he's gotta fight for me
if he wants to be my man

we're driving into open fire
keep your seat belts on
we live like we are kings but really
we are only pawns
we think we are impervious
to any kind of harm
but each time i'm with you
there's a bomb ticking in my heart (x2)